An Unspoken Desire

Once I was listening to a song- Koi Deewana Kehta Hai. I thoroughly loved it and started singing it over and over all day long with all my heart. No surprise that I was singing this for my Divine friend Dadashreeji. The lyrics are as follows.

Koi deewana kehta hai, koi pagal samajhta hai
(Some people think I am a crazy person)

Magar dharti ki bechaini ko bas badal samajhta hai
(But only the clouds can understand the longing of a parched land)

Main tujhse door kaisa hoon, tu mujhse door kaisa hai
(How we are away from each other)

Ye tera dil samajhta hai ya tera dil samajhta hai.
(Only our hearts know)

Bhramar koi Kumudni par machal baitha toh hungama
(use of figurative language… bhramar-insect, Kumudni-name of a flower. Love faces opposition)…. Continues

After singing it for the entire day, I realized that I had never seen a Kumudni flower. In my state of total connection with the Divine, I started to think what is Kumudni? Must be some exotic tree in Vrindaban I thought. I would like to see Kumudni. This thought came in my mind.

Then next day I was prompted to go for watching a movie at a farmhouse.

After the movie when I was coming back I felt like sitting quietly by the pond at that farmhouse for some time. As I reached near the pond I saw some people clicking pictures of the flowers in the pond. A person standing there told me, “Madam, you have come at a very good time. These are very rare ‘Kumudni flowers’ they bloom only at night.” He also informed me that these flowers represent female energy. They look similar to the Lotus but are different. I was enamored by the beauty of these flowers and the ways of Dada. The whole place seemed to be filled with silent mystical LOVE. I sat there, absorbing the beauty of the place and the Love of the Divine.
Without even having prayed or asked for it, Dada knew that I wanted to see the Kumudini flower and had fulfilled it .This is what Dada says “You can experience the Divine through two ways – Love and Selfless service.” While singing with love, I had reached a point where I got totally absorbed in the emotion. The ‘bond’ with the Divine, helped me experience what we call ’Dadamayi Consciousness’.
Thank you Dadashreeji, for this beautiful experience! May my love for the Divine grow with every breath I take.

At Your Lotus Feet,

Maitreyi Mamta.